Sunday, March 11, 2007

Tiring weeks...

It had been 2 weeks since im back from my hometown for chinese new year holiday..time really flies..but i felt that it seems that i hv been back here for weeks already but i just cant believe it's just 2 weeks nia..i think maybe to many things going on..i was so very busy...when i first step into um back from my holiday..i had been busy preparing for my parasitology test as i did not study at all back in my hometown..for the 3 days revision i was so stress up n anxious..there were lots to memorise and yeat im the one who cnt squeeze everything into my brain the last minute...but luckily i hope i will be fine with god grace..then after the test..there come my assignment to complete..assignment ah??!!haiz..there comes the comflict..maybe when people start to work together u will get to know more about people's characters...then conflict comes..when people doesnt seems to give commiment and support..wot one says hurt though...however at the begining it was still fine...then come another activities that we hv to work together...we have to practise a lot and perform the tat nite..things become worst..i really felt tat had to find gentlemen here lo..everyone is self centre..ya..it's lent season..i suppose i hv to do good including forgiving people..but i still cant..im still trying hard..not sure whether im wrong n just simply get angry o really we both are wrong...!!??not sure..??puzzle...o maybe all of us ar stress up kua..somemore the person not only hurting me..but frens around too..but hope god will guide me along..i must go for confession but i still din manage to..hopefully tis weekend...but wot for confession but still hvnt forgive ppl leh..??!!hope will get back to usual asap lo...tat's wot im busy for the weeks..and i oso join fews church activites..hopefully i will get back myself too..then there's lots a thought bothering me..i sometimes really puzzle about life..sometimes people seems to be too busy till dnt know their aim o the original purpose of doing things...rite??lost of themselves...tat's y god is owez our best guidiance...sometimes i can just sit there n day dreaming..really lots of things to consider...my future??!!study n study...then???!!ya we cnt predict wot will happen tml..sometimes i just tell myself life is not just studies..but i cnt let it go..so we really have to learn to sacrify...to make decision to choose one when u wish to have both...so just hope everything will be fine...but there's wont be great n happy days for 365days..so life is challenging..take it up janice...u can do it..live life the fullest..grow from all the hardship..i believe god is owez thr..maybe sometime wot i wish is not fullfilled cuz i trust god tat there must be a reason behind it..then there comes time when it is suitable..k la..have to go to class later..some more assignment to complete..tml i had rehearsal for easter musical..hmm..no la im just the ursher..then wed have to work for tat..test starting next weeks till begining of may..oh my god really endless tests...really doubt our malaysia education system..always endless test no matter which level u r in..in uni like tat..in goverment department oso...do so many test really neccesary??!!someone say something...!!

take care everyone..especially my mom,dad,sis n bro n relatives back in kuching...miss u all..my dear frens in kuching o studying elsewhere...god bless..hugs..